do i deserve all this
is this my fate
cold and alone
no one cares for me
i cry but no one
hears the cries you see..

teach me how to love sweet gentle master
show me love for enemies
dear lord..

for you are alone are the only one
the only one that sets me free
teach me lord
how to love them all
all and me...

I JUST PIERCED MY 2nd EAR HOLE ON MY RIGHT EAR...

why i say agin leh.. cause last time i pierced my 2nd earhole on my left, my mum forced me to close it... this time, i pierced it WITH their approval..haha i rock sia.. they allow me to pierce another one..haha.. but the 2nd earhole on the right, abit close to the first la.. scared not nice..hai..nvm la..haha so yapyap..happyhappy me!!

i shall try not to cut down on my blog entry..haha

just came back from pw, had to do some gpp ppt by tue, didn't wan to chiong tmr, so did it today at nic's house. her house super quiet..so unlike my hse haha.

abt my diet plans.. hai.. i'm like dying with it.. somemore i do like either 30 or 50 situps everyday, dun really think it works though..haha..
oh my parents just came back fron sheng shiong..haha..go help them unload ba..

BYEBYE!

bored`

just came back from uncle rays hse... suppose to stay over at sab's but kinda 'drank' too much at uncle rays place, had a horrible headache just now...now feelng better, wanted to play maple again but can't decide whether to choose.. ice/lightning wizard or fire/poison wizard.. hmm sian..

just now still awake de..dunno why now abit dead...shld go watch some youtube videos.. my blog entries getting shorter and shorter.. i scared it will die soon.. oh no..hai..bye!

I FINALLY DID IT

today suppose to go out after collect gsc at sec sch..but didn't. ended up visiting yx's sch with becky.. then came home gt abit bored ad watch some jap variety..haha super funny man.. its some batsu thing.

then jon ask me go play maple with him, and started teaching me how to go about downloading...but obviously i didn't listen to his instructions and screwed up, so i ended up reloading some other link and did a lot of moving of files and folders... phew..

AND I FINALLY DID IT!!

i just woke up to finish it up, and yap the game loads, but now i kinda need help with my character. haha.

today, or just later la, gt tr bbq, but like only 11 ppl going i think... i scared i will abit left out. hai..but nvm i'll just go, then have to go uncle ray's place for bbq ALSO.. then stayover at sab's..so i guess i'll slp in till abt 12!! hahaha shiok sia thats abt 8 hrs away..whee.. okies..i go back to slp le...nightie night...

5more days before u return, how much i've been longing for it...

exam suck-ed..

yest was my last mid year paper... hai.. all of them were screwed la. sian.

nvm.. yest after chem paper 1s04 went vivo for get smart movie...it was super funny..its been a long time since i've laughed so much.. being emo these weeks, today i laughed with no stress at all..felt so relaxed..haha!!

tmr going back sac to collect testimonial.. argh! haha okies..i go off le. bored sia

STUDY STUDY STUDY!

these few days keep going out to study.. everyday eat out..sian suppose to go on diet, end up putting on weight!! sian. yest studied with gab at night then he went home ard 11 ba.. i stayed on till today morning 6.30am!! haha did quite abit..but it kinda made me waste today. i slept till 1pm plus i think.

then went to pack my bag and left for parkway to study with cherie and shush.. but guess wad happen.. when i reached there, shush was shopping at cotton on..haha and i joined her!! i bought a top.. can't wait to go shopping again after mids. haha shush say will jio me le..haha my hands super itching to spend money!! cherie wanted to cut her hair but didn't in the end..so sad..haha!

let me list down wad i've not finished studying..hmm

PHYSICS
1.forces
2.work, energy power
3.abit more dynamics

CHEMISTRY
1.gaseous state
2.atomic structure

ECONS
1. everything:(

MATHS
1. apgp(i need help..anybody wanna help??!!)
2.summation(need help too!)
3.inequalities

hmm...wow thats still a lot..i'm left with 3 days.. die le..hai i'm going to screw up my mids sia. argh! jiayou!

reflection

Reflection<3
Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter
can it be
I'm not meant to play this part?
Now I see
That if I were truly
To be myself
I would break my fam'ly's heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight
Back at me?
Why is my reflection someone
I don't know?
Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

FATHER'S DAY!

haha..yapyap.. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY... to all father

so attempting to study.. tmr need to go sch at 8.30 for pw meeting..roar..
jiayou! still trying to learn how to put song on my blog!

i'm going to spam my blog with lyrics...haha!

i think i'm going to spam my blog with lyrics le..haha as u can see my past few blog entries ar lyrics.. another nice nice chinese song..not so old not so new ba..but recently watched 斗牛要不要。。

S.H.E. - 你最近还好吗
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它
天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法 让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

yeah! i did something!

i finally did some work today.. haha i did 3 essay plans and 1 chap of chem tys..haha so proud of myself.
i guess studying really helps to forget abt unhappy stuff. today studied with yiggie at expo. super efficient! tmr going there again..hope to do phy and like maybe 2 more essay plans and if can maths.

actually maybe i might wan to go expo study, then after 10, go airport to continue study till sat early morning, go for maths then afternoon take a break. go buy father's day present, maybe go pierce my ear, and do some shopping..but i think i'll be too tired to actually do shopping. so yapyap!

yay..feel so happy today..later if i dun fall aslp.i shall do econs! jiayou val, studying helps forget everything every unhappy moment!! jiayou.

ROAR.

heehee...yupyup...this is the harvard jacket jie bought for me!.. its maroon and whit in colour. its super nice!

hai...my sony phone is dying..i used it for about 1 year plus le ba. it shuts down every few mins if i dun use it. so it the walkman function can still be used. this is my jie's old phone send back to s'pore by my mum. cause.. my sis gt an iphone from boston. hai. so yup using her phone. its still in one piece..she does keep her phone in gd condition! haha with the plastic cover which has cracks and dirt all over. haha later i shall go get a new cover. this is super temporary, cause inside still gt her pics and sms.. omg.. ya.. her inbox msges date all the way back to 29/12...like last year..scary sia.

anyway, today suppose to go out to study with yiggie...sry!..but i fell aslp... slept thru..sian..now going airport..study for a few hrs then go pick faustine up! she's coming back from beijing. and she bought me stuff!..

these few days have been feeling down.. but had friends ard to cheer me up oh and youtube.. haha was watching videos of babies laughing and jap variety shows..they are all lmao kind of vids sia..haha ..i go pack up to leave hse le..bye!

wait..recently..i just checked my comments... if i'm not right....hmmm the me person is my jie who shld be enjoying her trip in europe...haha i abit slow..haha hai..miss her like crazy sia.

I GOT MY HARVARD JACKET!!

YAPYAP...they are back...with loads of chocolate and clothes for the poor sick me who stayed in s'pore while they went to US for holiday!..haha..jie's at london with dot and bin ..they shld have met le ba.. jie bought me a harvard jacket...haha original one kies..haha zi high*
she gt me alot of tops and one beach shorts.haha..shall email her to thank her soon.

nictan, caroline&kyung, gab and jon...your presents in s'pore!! they are actually just chocolates haha.. my parents just randomly bought them so..yap specially for u all!!

i go email my jie now..haha so many tops..dunnid shop for tops le..now onli nid to shop for sch bag and jeans! wheee!
=)

pics of camp aspire

slider phones!

SE7EN!!

huiting, me, vivian, jasmine and her foot!..haha

family of five*

!!SEVEN!!

chio sia!

seven at ubin!

die.

argh..
gp essay is like due in 16 hrs 15mins...and i haven started it!! i'm super dead. mids is in like 2 weeks i think and i haven started studying. still living in the fun mode...roar! tmr onwards i shall start my full-proof studying plan which i intend to start up after blogging..haha.

mum and dad are coming back in...13hrs!...argh. freedom leaving me slowly. i actually kinda liked it when i'm alone.. i just feel more motivated that i work better without them alone. gt a surprise for mummy...tmr then blog abt it..hope it survives till tmr.

sending dot off later...shld i go airport study now.. send her off and continue studying...or send her off then start studying.. hmm.. dunno sia.

gqs in hospital...hope he gets well soon! shall go visit him next week!. so need to start on my essay sia...argh!...jia you!

time's running out...
stop holding onto the past...
take a step forward...
and depart on a new journey...
all over again...
just dun let those mistakes...
hinder your way...
forgetting is the only way...
so let it go...
whats yours is yours...
what isn't...
will nv be...

CAMP ASPIRE!

yapyap..back from camp yesterday. but was really sick to get up and blog. haha camp was actually fun even though i was sick. let's see...

Day1: we had some tags thing and had to find our identical tag partner, sadly i couldn't find mine...haha so just hang ard in the hall and pretend that i was looking for my partner. then later we gt into out grps and i met sherlene...haha. she's like some long lost friend...totally understand each other's hokkien lingo sia. then we had some hunt ard sch and super spicy lunch. practically most of our meals were spicy...so ya. then we had to do some planning for day 2's activity..nothing fun yet. ...then..oh..there was amazing race 'ard singapore'...actually ard city hall there only. oh ya...i forgot to mention..i'm was in grp seven!! haha dinner was spicy...AGAIN.

at night we continued our planning and some packing for ubin trip,and also gt to noe the ppl in the grp better.sherlene and i washed our hair at the wash point at the track and later went to use the staff toilet. super shiok sia. went to the girl's toilet to clear all the hair and rubbish that was stuck at the drain. it was kinda disgusting but ya, no one wanted to do it..so i bravely did it..hahaha..good job val!

Day2: UBIN TRIP!! seven was suppose to go kayaking first..but ended up going for land expedition. but i guess it was a blessing in disguise since we didn't bring alot of things.we were definitely more bonded on 2nd day. we had activies ard ubin and found out that iron man was super good at maths and problem solving. we also took alot of pics after land expedition. then when we went back to camp site we were told to change campsite after COOKING dinner... wow right...ya. we were given..fishes, eggs, sweet corn, sweet potato, potato and banana! after shifting campsite ...sian i can't think properly..there was some slacking and .campfire was abit dead maybe because some of us were at the back. but later we did participate in the cheers. there was also some fashion thing.. eterna wore...ahem...someone's braand had touchlights in it. and also alvin was half naked with some hat. it was super hilarious sia.
teachers had some dancing going on after tat...and the night was even more fun..

hiuting, vivain and i went ard with the cooked eggs asking who wanted to eat..haha then weent to ka jiao iron man and eterna at their tents.. hui ting and i were peeling eggs in their tents.. then sherlene, grace, yeo mei, hui ting, vivian and i went toilet and settled down besdie our tent lying down on our unpitched tent...talking our scandals/..but as usual i kinda fell aslp..haha then huiting and i went ard to ka jiao ppl again. tat time i removed my contacts le..so super blind.
when huiting and i returned, grace, vivian and sherlene were inside the tent.. then grace had to go back to hers..and 4 of us stayed in the tent..haha

Day3: woke up, unpitch our tents and had some briefing, had biscuits and milo...without water..haha..
then packed up and set off for sea expedition.. sherlene wanted of kayak alone so i had no partner for kayaking. and vivian didn't want to kayak so i kayaked(is there such a word).. with edmond.haha it was a fun expedition ...we were travelling abit zigzag. and after capsizing drill we had more talking going on.then after some raft up...all of us from ms ng's grp saw jelly fish..haha super cool.. mr goh then also took a pic of the whole grp. when we reached pasir ris shore... we washed up and just slack... ... ... then the whole sea expedition ppl went to gather at the basketball court and unno why but there was icecream...shiok sia..haha the bus arrived...we gt on and i just totally slept through the ride.. in sch we had our lunch...and even though there was chilli..we still ate everything up..all of us were super hungry sia.

we washed our tents after lunch and....went to bathe.. ..i too lazy to blog ler..haha. i shall just cut short..
a few of us from seven went for dinner at macs and went home!...haha super lazy. oh eating macs was super shiok sia..heavenly.

okies...fun for very long le..today i shall start studying!..i'm thinking of keeping long hair again...shld i...hmm..if not i go cut it ler..
OH...THEY ARE COMING BACK ON MONDAY....ARGH...MY FUN'S OVER!. hai...i have to do some packing! tonite cannot slp...jiayou!

如果你不再出現
我的世界 還有什麼可貴
可惜不夠時間讓我們試驗 什麼叫永遠

想念變成懷念
心動變成心碎
偏偏還會關切
你最後屬於誰

我的天空今天有點灰
我的心是個落葉的季節
我不知道如何度過今夜
所有的燈　早已經全都熄滅

如果你從沒出現
我會不會　覺得快樂一些
可惜殘忍時間
總要把諾言　一點點摧毀

sick.sick.sick.

currently super sick. after going to yukiyaki. attempted not to eat so much fried stuff but still eat, i'm now on the verge of death...and camp aspire is tmr!! shit sia. i wan to go for it man. today gt 1hr of lesson waste my time sia.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! LOVE U!

I WANT TO SHOPPING!!!

but obviously gt no time. sian. feeling super horrible..i'm coughing super badly. its like every cough i make my stomach and nose hurts real bad...sian la..sounds a bit weird la but it true. my nose is also always either blocked till i can't breathe properly or running like there's a marathon...continuously flowing.

super tired. shld i go sch today?? i take 1hr to go sch for just 1hr of lessons and i take another 1hr to get back home...hmmm... SHLD I GO SCH TODAY??!!!

愛總是讓人哭讓人覺得不滿足

我愛上讓我奮不顧身的一個人
我以為這就是我所追求的世界
然而橫沖直撞被誤解被騙
是否成人的世界背後總有殘缺

我走在每天必須面對的分岔路
我懷念過去單純 美好的小幸福
愛總是讓人哭讓人覺得不滿足
天空很大卻看不清楚好孤獨

tired.

yest had kayaking for camp aspire. but then it rained.. so we only kayak for awhile only, then came up shore le... then when our grp wash up le..then the sun came up again...hai..sian. anyway...then went home..fell aslp.

in the evening went to celebrate CAROLINE'S birthday!...went to MOF at bugis..didn't noe of that place. when caroline told me abt that place i tot she scam me la..sian. i ate bento chicken teriyaki!..yummy! then anne, gab and i shared sesame icecream and some mango dessert. haha i accidently toppled the icecream on the mango dessert then anne and i hurried to scoop it back up...haha and all gab do was continue eating his sesame icecream...i tell u it was hilarious la..hahaaha!

tmr is kyung's and gab's b'dae..presents..have yet to make for them..how..die..caroline's present finally dried..after 2 nights..so can pass to her tmr ler..haha tmr going yukiyaki for dinner whee!
i'm so going to put on weight la. roar i alrdy gain 1 kg. i so need to do pt which shall include situps, pushups, jumping jacks...and LOADS of running..this hols isthe time for me to work out all my excess fats and build up on m stamina..
question is when am i staring this 'plan'...hmmm... soon ba..haha most prob after camp

mum's b'dae also coming its on tue..so sad, can't celebrate with her. onli can wish her happy b'dae on the phone at most.need to calculate the time diff sia,..otherwise later call wrong time.
oh and i just recieved jie's package..haha gt my favourite chocolate inside and some t-shirts jie ordered for me.thanks jie! yest night they called, they were at disneyland!!! roar! and tmr i gt sch..with EXTRA phy lessons...yay for me... oh ya and there's concultation till 6 plus.. jiayou ba,..
i need to buck up in class as well as for pw.need to push myself harder. cannot slack ler..mids coming soon mum and dad returning soon also.

i shall go do work, energy, power tutorial...or at least try to start on it..
haha blog later!=)