hurtanddefeated'

GONE!

2008-07-20T17:46:00.000+08:00

I'VE SHIFTED..CHANGED TO LIVE JOURNAL.. IF U CAN FIND ME, GOOD FOR U.
IF U CAN'T, TOO BAD!..HAHA

BYE!

2008-07-19T12:47:00.002+08:00

It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star«
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
it's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
lost in the song
but if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

2008-07-19T00:53:00.002+08:00

just came home.. i didn't want to come home so early today.. i dun really like the atmosphere of it now.. i'd rather stay out as late as i can.. argh.. anyway.. i've been pms-ing.. argh.

kind lazy to blog today.. becks asked me to change to livejournal..and maybe i should.. hmm.. i'll think abt it..too lazy to create account as well.. haha

tmr going nic's hse for pw..hai..pw is destroying my life.

then maybe after tat going with thomas go see electric guitarl.haha like finally!!

sian le..hmm..i'll blog more abt today...tmr ba..nites

2008-07-17T00:21:00.003+08:00

the cruelty of life...

how life makes a fool out of me...

how life can be so pathetic on one day and yet so fulfilling on another..

how life tosses me up and down..

how i sometimes still believe what people tell me, when reality is infront of me

how i sometimes wish on a wishing star, only to find out that it nv comes true..

how i sometimes care about what others feel, only to find that i neglected my own..

how do i control my facial expression when my hearts crying out loud..

how..just how does all these occur in my 'oh so exciting' life. ARGH!

我活了我爱了我都不管了心爱到疯了恨到算了就好了...

你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞..

..你说我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱着
你退缩你冷漠
于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心
会永远的寂寞..

2008-07-14T22:40:00.005+08:00

when dreams turn to nightmares.. who will wake me up..

its been a tiring day. suddenly, the weight of the world's on my shoulders.. and i'm trying so hard to stand tall. but sometimes, i'm not as strong as i seem to be. exhausted. i can't seem to let go of u.. sorry. trying so hard..

exhausted. when i hope that dreams would true and it did, how i wished it stayed there.. instead of turning into nightmares that haunt me every night. who. who will wake me up.

give me strength to carry on. to get back on track. to leave my past behind. let these nightmares go away.

exhausted.

2008-07-13T21:24:00.003+08:00

chionging gpp thingy... actually proposal to hand up on tue.. argh, then still gt EoM.. due on tue.. i wana die le. and the rash i gt.. doc said should be sand fly bites.. gross right.. ya fine.. hai.. so now i go out must either wear 3/4 sleeves or baggy clothes.. to cover up the scars.. argh for now till the scas heal.. hai sian

yest went to bishan to study with my LOVE.. haha but we ended up at delifrance instead.. i did quite abit ba.. i finished half of my apgp tutorial which was like due longlong ago..haha

just knew tat there was gp hw/research.. so i briefly went to do research on it.. AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHETHER ITS CORRECT OR NOT. HAI. anyway... jon's uncontactbale again.. so i ahve no idea how to tell him abt gp and chinese hw being due tmr.. and the need to rbing entry proof tmr(though i have no idea why)... gab tell me de.. but gab msged him le..so shld be ok ba..haha i hope.. so sian sch start again..i've gt lots to catch up cause i missed sch for 2 days straight.. due to my sand fly bites..argh.! kies i had enough on environmental research le.. i shall do a little chinese.. and pray i dun fall aslp doing it..

caroline..i'll be there for you.. together, we'll get through it.. we'll forget all our unhappy moments. it'll be over soon, we'll get over it together. jiayou.

2008-07-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

wads the point in making promises and breaking them in the end..

only fools would actually believe in these promises.. and i guess i'm just one of them.. fooled inside, out.. and in the end whose the one getting hurt..

hai hang in there val.. the pain will be over soon, u'll get over it... its just a matter of 'when'..

just hang in there..

2008-07-10T22:27:00.001+08:00

vanessa rocks

2008-07-10T20:22:00.002+08:00

didn't go sch today.. had some kind of rash... itchy sia..and i can't scratch...argh
went to the docs and all he gave me was some tablets and lotion..dots. hai.. whole day sleep and watch tv. forgt that i left my laptop on.. so its kinda super heated up now..opps. dinner was nice. mum cooked dinner.. even though everyone was having dinner together... it just didn't seem right.. i felt super out of place, totally couldn't get their conver and even if i tried.. there'll be silence after i said something. family, love.. i guess the 2 most powerful words i've heard of.. both so powerful and wonderful it may seem, but yet, family and love have just been making me so upset. argh.. its the power of love i guess.. <3

2008-07-09T22:23:00.001+08:00

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.

2008-07-09T21:06:00.002+08:00

today no training.. hai. so stayed back in sch to chiong maths corrections till like 5 plus ba.. then met up with jie at bugis..
we ate xiaolongbao for dinner...wah shiok sia!! haha both of us super long nv eat le.. lol.
oh and she bought me a wallet.. haha i'll carry it to sch tmr! whee!.
gt alot of hw to chiong sia.. sian
argh

18th july is sr parent's night.. and also my parent's wedding anniversary.. i think they'll suffer a heart attack and it'll be the worse anniversary ever sia.. argh. tmr gt gp compre test.. and i really suck at these things... and until now i still can't get how to do summation, this pisses me off. roar!!

reminder to self..
...
...
studystudystudy!!!

2008-07-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

i've made a mistake.. a step to the right wasn't the right choice..
a rush of memories making me think about how horrible i was to u..
sry. i nv knew... i kinda regretted, but like u said its all in the past..
sry.

2008-07-07T21:05:00.004+08:00

WOW.. its been a long weekend.. actually it passed like reeaalllly fast..haha..

friday 4th july, was jie's b'dae!! haha there was loads of good food. my mum cooked nasilemak and my uncle bought black pepper crab. haha shiok sia! good wine obviously came with good food.. jie opened a few bottles, its has been like 6 months since i last drank with jie..hai, i'm so so so so happy she's back.. missed her a lot man.. haha. that day b4 her b'dae dinner, i had training.. had a horrible blister.. painpainpain! so i kinda fell aslp at ard 3am plus..didn't hep with the clearing( gives guilty look...opps!) haha

saturday 5thjuly, had FUN TOUCH at sentosa.. haha super fun sia.. it rained a little but inthe end still gt burnt sia..painpainpain.. oh and the blister looked super red after game.. haha there was.. bern, becks, yuling, wanling and me!..hahah super fun.. super tiring though.. but i had super loads of fun.. oh ya..next week no training.. not playing for sat's match=(...its ok, i'll work hard!
after all the games... and watching the men and mixed teams playing(super cool sia...they play super fast! haha).. chermaine, bern and i went to bathe. the queue at the toilet was disgusting..lol. then we took the monorail and train back together..
i was rushing to go watch a singapore production with family and friends...'12 to 12' it was reaaallly good.. totally enjoyed even though i was tired from a day's games..oh tat day i wore skirt..amazing right.haha i found it super amazing haha.. then after the show we went for supper.. tat included: oyster, lala, gonggong, hokkien mee, chicken wing, stingray... its like practically the whole range of seafood sia.. haha! but the day didn't end here..haha yup there's more!

went to wab's hse to stayover..talked alot... gossiped a lot, watched dvd till i fell asleep.. haha we wanted to eat macs breakfast but obviously wab's and i couldn't wake even though claire attempted to wake us up..lol. wab and claire was spamming my msn when i was in the toilet.. haha and they said thomas looked 'not bad wad' ...haha.. he was like the only kutu online at tat hour..haha..

sunday 6thjuly, left wab's hse around 12.30 and went for lunch at KFC...haha shared a buddy mean with wab's.. super full! went back to her hse and played taiti(have no idea how u spell tat!).. lol. went home around 3 plus.. then had a mini pw meeting..then left for church le..

then after church and dinner... CHERLENE CAME TO STAYOVER! haha.. she went to pierce like 4 earholes in like 1 day..haha.. we watched dvd and talked and i was playing maple till like 4.. and woke up at 7.30 ba.. haha

and i was late for pw.. oppss. sry! had maths lesson at 9.30till 11..i was half alive.. anyway, after maths cherlene and i went hougang mall to carry out secret mission..haha which only she and i knew haha.. we also bought like super cute watches..haha! slept my whole afternoon..so tonight must burn midnight oil le...hai

tmr sch starts again roar!.. tmr gt maths, chem test.. and gp hw due.. hai.. tiredtiredtired.

this is where it all began..
it seems like its ended..
has it?

HAPPY HAPPY ME!

2008-07-06T01:40:00.002+08:00

hahaha at cherie's hse now!!

and tmr cherlene's coming over to my hse!!

2008-07-04T00:49:00.004+08:00

mid years was a complete flop, and i guess i've wasted enough time ...and it is time i embarked onto a whole new chapter in life. leave the past behind, forget all the unhappy moments, treasure the happy ones.. and of course learn to live life to the fullest.

when will i ever get over it`.. soon i guess. some may find me kinda stupid, i think so too. stupid enough to believe anything and everything that comes along. stupid enough to live in denial..
stupid enough to neglect my own feelings and hurt myself time and time again... stupid enough to love someone so stupidly.. just stupid enough to be stupid.. shit.. i have no idea wad i was writing.. dots.. nvm.

jie just came back..missed her so much, its been 6 months since i last saw her face to face. somehow i realised i've changed.. how, i'm not too sure yet, still trying to find answers to my questionable life..

i thought i could resist, but i still fell into the clutches of love and now end up nowhere..

2008-07-02T22:55:00.003+08:00

我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情...

...♥就算轻轻的呼吸心还是感觉痛
没有你的日子里我变的好脆弱
轻轻一碰
彷佛就要飞走～耶～
口袋里的双手曾被你温柔紧握
布满思念的空气该怎么去摆脱
天灰的好寂寞
快乐悲伤被你左右
说一千遍我爱你也都还不够
就这样不贪心我慢慢的走
只要有你陪着我再苦也承受
只要有你陪着我再苦我能承受
说一千遍我爱你也都还不够
有一天我总会看见幸福的彩虹
相信你给的承诺我等候♥...

2008-07-01T19:43:00.006+08:00

..It all comes down to how you see the situation. Two people can have the exact same life but one feels much happier than the other because he sees everything differently..

a friend of mine once told me that... i guess i've been making myself so miserable. i've been wasting my time trying to hold onto something which i know i can never get... yet, why do i still hesitate to let go, cause i can't cheat myself anymore. i still love u. i've been cheating myself about how i feel about you. each time i think about you..i land up in tears, tears of misery.. loneliness. and why?.. i myself don't know.
i dare not face the situation, i avoided it, thats how i landed myself like this.. pathetic. i bottled up everything cause i thought i could handle it.. i could handle other ppl's yet i was defeated by myself. its no one's fault i guess.. i just refused/couldn't bear to let go. you have decided to lead life as usual, so should i.. i hope this time i'm doing the right thing...can u tell me wad to do.. god help me, give me strength...

2008-06-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

do i deserve all this
is this my fate
cold and alone
no one cares for me
i cry but no one
hears the cries you see..

teach me how to love sweet gentle master
show me love for enemies
dear lord..

for you are alone are the only one
the only one that sets me free
teach me lord
how to love them all
all and me...

2008-06-29T21:11:00.001+08:00

I JUST PIERCED MY 2nd EAR HOLE ON MY RIGHT EAR...

why i say agin leh.. cause last time i pierced my 2nd earhole on my left, my mum forced me to close it... this time, i pierced it WITH their approval..haha i rock sia.. they allow me to pierce another one..haha.. but the 2nd earhole on the right, abit close to the first la.. scared not nice..hai..nvm la..haha so yapyap..happyhappy me!!

i shall try not to cut down on my blog entry..haha

just came back from pw, had to do some gpp ppt by tue, didn't wan to chiong tmr, so did it today at nic's house. her house super quiet..so unlike my hse haha.

abt my diet plans.. hai.. i'm like dying with it.. somemore i do like either 30 or 50 situps everyday, dun really think it works though..haha..
oh my parents just came back fron sheng shiong..haha..go help them unload ba..

BYEBYE!

bored`

2008-06-29T01:40:00.002+08:00

just came back from uncle rays hse... suppose to stay over at sab's but kinda 'drank' too much at uncle rays place, had a horrible headache just now...now feelng better, wanted to play maple again but can't decide whether to choose.. ice/lightning wizard or fire/poison wizard.. hmm sian..

just now still awake de..dunno why now abit dead...shld go watch some youtube videos.. my blog entries getting shorter and shorter.. i scared it will die soon.. oh no..hai..bye!

I FINALLY DID IT

2008-06-28T03:39:00.003+08:00

today suppose to go out after collect gsc at sec sch..but didn't. ended up visiting yx's sch with becky.. then came home gt abit bored ad watch some jap variety..haha super funny man.. its some batsu thing.

then jon ask me go play maple with him, and started teaching me how to go about downloading...but obviously i didn't listen to his instructions and screwed up, so i ended up reloading some other link and did a lot of moving of files and folders... phew..

AND I FINALLY DID IT!!

i just woke up to finish it up, and yap the game loads, but now i kinda need help with my character. haha.

today, or just later la, gt tr bbq, but like only 11 ppl going i think... i scared i will abit left out. hai..but nvm i'll just go, then have to go uncle ray's place for bbq ALSO.. then stayover at sab's..so i guess i'll slp in till abt 12!! hahaha shiok sia thats abt 8 hrs away..whee.. okies..i go back to slp le...nightie night...

5more days before u return, how much i've been longing for it...

exam suck-ed..

2008-06-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

yest was my last mid year paper... hai.. all of them were screwed la. sian.

nvm.. yest after chem paper 1s04 went vivo for get smart movie...it was super funny..its been a long time since i've laughed so much.. being emo these weeks, today i laughed with no stress at all..felt so relaxed..haha!!

tmr going back sac to collect testimonial.. argh! haha okies..i go off le. bored sia

STUDY STUDY STUDY!

2008-06-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

these few days keep going out to study.. everyday eat out..sian suppose to go on diet, end up putting on weight!! sian. yest studied with gab at night then he went home ard 11 ba.. i stayed on till today morning 6.30am!! haha did quite abit..but it kinda made me waste today. i slept till 1pm plus i think.

then went to pack my bag and left for parkway to study with cherie and shush.. but guess wad happen.. when i reached there, shush was shopping at cotton on..haha and i joined her!! i bought a top.. can't wait to go shopping again after mids. haha shush say will jio me le..haha my hands super itching to spend money!! cherie wanted to cut her hair but didn't in the end..so sad..haha!

let me list down wad i've not finished studying..hmm

PHYSICS
1.forces
2.work, energy power
3.abit more dynamics

CHEMISTRY
1.gaseous state
2.atomic structure

ECONS
1. everything:(

MATHS
1. apgp(i need help..anybody wanna help??!!)
2.summation(need help too!)
3.inequalities

hmm...wow thats still a lot..i'm left with 3 days.. die le..hai i'm going to screw up my mids sia. argh! jiayou!

reflection

2008-06-16T01:12:00.006+08:00

Reflection<3
Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter
can it be
I'm not meant to play this part?
Now I see
That if I were truly
To be myself
I would break my fam'ly's heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight
Back at me?
Why is my reflection someone
I don't know?
Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

FATHER'S DAY!

2008-06-15T22:04:00.002+08:00

haha..yapyap.. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY... to all father

so attempting to study.. tmr need to go sch at 8.30 for pw meeting..roar..
jiayou! still trying to learn how to put song on my blog!

i'm going to spam my blog with lyrics...haha!

2008-06-14T20:59:00.002+08:00

i think i'm going to spam my blog with lyrics le..haha as u can see my past few blog entries ar lyrics.. another nice nice chinese song..not so old not so new ba..but recently watched 斗牛要不要。。

S.H.E. - 你最近还好吗
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

yeah! i did something!

2008-06-12T23:53:00.002+08:00

i finally did some work today.. haha i did 3 essay plans and 1 chap of chem tys..haha so proud of myself.
i guess studying really helps to forget abt unhappy stuff. today studied with yiggie at expo. super efficient! tmr going there again..hope to do phy and like maybe 2 more essay plans and if can maths.

actually maybe i might wan to go expo study, then after 10, go airport to continue study till sat early morning, go for maths then afternoon take a break. go buy father's day present, maybe go pierce my ear, and do some shopping..but i think i'll be too tired to actually do shopping. so yapyap!

yay..feel so happy today..later if i dun fall aslp.i shall do econs! jiayou val, studying helps forget everything every unhappy moment!! jiayou.

ROAR.

2008-06-11T13:48:00.006+08:00

heehee...yupyup...this is the harvard jacket jie bought for me!.. its maroon and whit in colour. its super nice!

hai...my sony phone is dying..i used it for about 1 year plus le ba. it shuts down every few mins if i dun use it. so it the walkman function can still be used. this is my jie's old phone send back to s'pore by my mum. cause.. my sis gt an iphone from boston. hai. so yup using her phone. its still in one piece..she does keep her phone in gd condition! haha with the plastic cover which has cracks and dirt all over. haha later i shall go get a new cover. this is super temporary, cause inside still gt her pics and sms.. omg.. ya.. her inbox msges date all the way back to 29/12...like last year..scary sia.

anyway, today suppose to go out to study with yiggie...sry!..but i fell aslp... slept thru..sian..now going airport..study for a few hrs then go pick faustine up! she's coming back from beijing. and she bought me stuff!..

these few days have been feeling down.. but had friends ard to cheer me up oh and youtube.. haha was watching videos of babies laughing and jap variety shows..they are all lmao kind of vids sia..haha ..i go pack up to leave hse le..bye!

wait..recently..i just checked my comments... if i'm not right....hmmm the me person is my jie who shld be enjoying her trip in europe...haha i abit slow..haha hai..miss her like crazy sia.

I GOT MY HARVARD JACKET!!

2008-06-09T08:32:00.002+08:00

YAPYAP...they are back...with loads of chocolate and clothes for the poor sick me who stayed in s'pore while they went to US for holiday!..haha..jie's at london with dot and bin ..they shld have met le ba.. jie bought me a harvard jacket...haha original one kies..haha zi high*
she gt me alot of tops and one beach shorts.haha..shall email her to thank her soon.

nictan, caroline&kyung, gab and jon...your presents in s'pore!! they are actually just chocolates haha.. my parents just randomly bought them so..yap specially for u all!!

i go email my jie now..haha so many tops..dunnid shop for tops le..now onli nid to shop for sch bag and jeans! wheee!
=)

pics of camp aspire

2008-06-09T08:18:00.004+08:00

slider phones!

SE7EN!!

huiting, me, vivian, jasmine and her foot!..haha

family of five*

!!SEVEN!!

chio sia!

seven at ubin!

die.

2008-06-08T17:43:00.003+08:00

argh..
gp essay is like due in 16 hrs 15mins...and i haven started it!! i'm super dead. mids is in like 2 weeks i think and i haven started studying. still living in the fun mode...roar! tmr onwards i shall start my full-proof studying plan which i intend to start up after blogging..haha.

mum and dad are coming back in...13hrs!...argh. freedom leaving me slowly. i actually kinda liked it when i'm alone.. i just feel more motivated that i work better without them alone. gt a surprise for mummy...tmr then blog abt it..hope it survives till tmr.

sending dot off later...shld i go airport study now.. send her off and continue studying...or send her off then start studying.. hmm.. dunno sia.

gqs in hospital...hope he gets well soon! shall go visit him next week!. so need to start on my essay sia...argh!...jia you!

time's running out...
stop holding onto the past...
take a step forward...
and depart on a new journey...
all over again...
just dun let those mistakes...
hinder your way...
forgetting is the only way...
so let it go...
whats yours is yours...
what isn't...
will nv be...

CAMP ASPIRE!

2008-06-07T20:22:00.006+08:00

yapyap..back from camp yesterday. but was really sick to get up and blog. haha camp was actually fun even though i was sick. let's see...

Day1: we had some tags thing and had to find our identical tag partner, sadly i couldn't find mine...haha so just hang ard in the hall and pretend that i was looking for my partner. then later we gt into out grps and i met sherlene...haha. she's like some long lost friend...totally understand each other's hokkien lingo sia. then we had some hunt ard sch and super spicy lunch. practically most of our meals were spicy...so ya. then we had to do some planning for day 2's activity..nothing fun yet. ...then..oh..there was amazing race 'ard singapore'...actually ard city hall there only. oh ya...i forgot to mention..i'm was in grp seven!! haha dinner was spicy...AGAIN.

at night we continued our planning and some packing for ubin trip,and also gt to noe the ppl in the grp better.sherlene and i washed our hair at the wash point at the track and later went to use the staff toilet. super shiok sia. went to the girl's toilet to clear all the hair and rubbish that was stuck at the drain. it was kinda disgusting but ya, no one wanted to do it..so i bravely did it..hahaha..good job val!

Day2: UBIN TRIP!! seven was suppose to go kayaking first..but ended up going for land expedition. but i guess it was a blessing in disguise since we didn't bring alot of things.we were definitely more bonded on 2nd day. we had activies ard ubin and found out that iron man was super good at maths and problem solving. we also took alot of pics after land expedition. then when we went back to camp site we were told to change campsite after COOKING dinner... wow right...ya. we were given..fishes, eggs, sweet corn, sweet potato, potato and banana! after shifting campsite ...sian i can't think properly..there was some slacking and .campfire was abit dead maybe because some of us were at the back. but later we did participate in the cheers. there was also some fashion thing.. eterna wore...ahem...someone's braand had touchlights in it. and also alvin was half naked with some hat. it was super hilarious sia.
teachers had some dancing going on after tat...and the night was even more fun..

hiuting, vivain and i went ard with the cooked eggs asking who wanted to eat..haha then weent to ka jiao iron man and eterna at their tents.. hui ting and i were peeling eggs in their tents.. then sherlene, grace, yeo mei, hui ting, vivian and i went toilet and settled down besdie our tent lying down on our unpitched tent...talking our scandals/..but as usual i kinda fell aslp..haha then huiting and i went ard to ka jiao ppl again. tat time i removed my contacts le..so super blind.
when huiting and i returned, grace, vivian and sherlene were inside the tent.. then grace had to go back to hers..and 4 of us stayed in the tent..haha

Day3: woke up, unpitch our tents and had some briefing, had biscuits and milo...without water..haha..
then packed up and set off for sea expedition.. sherlene wanted of kayak alone so i had no partner for kayaking. and vivian didn't want to kayak so i kayaked(is there such a word).. with edmond.haha it was a fun expedition ...we were travelling abit zigzag. and after capsizing drill we had more talking going on.then after some raft up...all of us from ms ng's grp saw jelly fish..haha super cool.. mr goh then also took a pic of the whole grp. when we reached pasir ris shore... we washed up and just slack... ... ... then the whole sea expedition ppl went to gather at the basketball court and unno why but there was icecream...shiok sia..haha the bus arrived...we gt on and i just totally slept through the ride.. in sch we had our lunch...and even though there was chilli..we still ate everything up..all of us were super hungry sia.

we washed our tents after lunch and....went to bathe.. ..i too lazy to blog ler..haha. i shall just cut short..
a few of us from seven went for dinner at macs and went home!...haha super lazy. oh eating macs was super shiok sia..heavenly.

okies...fun for very long le..today i shall start studying!..i'm thinking of keeping long hair again...shld i...hmm..if not i go cut it ler..
OH...THEY ARE COMING BACK ON MONDAY....ARGH...MY FUN'S OVER!. hai...i have to do some packing! tonite cannot slp...jiayou!

2008-06-07T01:16:00.002+08:00

如果你不再出現
我的世界還有什麼可貴
可惜不夠時間讓我們試驗什麼叫永遠

想念變成懷念
心動變成心碎
偏偏還會關切
你最後屬於誰

我的天空今天有點灰
我的心是個落葉的季節
我不知道如何度過今夜
所有的燈　早已經全都熄滅

如果你從沒出現
我會不會　覺得快樂一些
可惜殘忍時間
總要把諾言　一點點摧毀

sick.sick.sick.

2008-06-03T08:48:00.003+08:00

currently super sick. after going to yukiyaki. attempted not to eat so much fried stuff but still eat, i'm now on the verge of death...and camp aspire is tmr!! shit sia. i wan to go for it man. today gt 1hr of lesson waste my time sia.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! LOVE U!

I WANT TO SHOPPING!!!

but obviously gt no time. sian. feeling super horrible..i'm coughing super badly. its like every cough i make my stomach and nose hurts real bad...sian la..sounds a bit weird la but it true. my nose is also always either blocked till i can't breathe properly or running like there's a marathon...continuously flowing.

super tired. shld i go sch today?? i take 1hr to go sch for just 1hr of lessons and i take another 1hr to get back home...hmmm... SHLD I GO SCH TODAY??!!!

愛總是讓人哭讓人覺得不滿足

2008-06-01T22:04:00.001+08:00

我愛上讓我奮不顧身的一個人
我以為這就是我所追求的世界
然而橫沖直撞被誤解被騙
是否成人的世界背後總有殘缺

我走在每天必須面對的分岔路
我懷念過去單純美好的小幸福
愛總是讓人哭讓人覺得不滿足
天空很大卻看不清楚好孤獨

tired.

2008-06-01T19:59:00.002+08:00

yest had kayaking for camp aspire. but then it rained.. so we only kayak for awhile only, then came up shore le... then when our grp wash up le..then the sun came up again...hai..sian. anyway...then went home..fell aslp.

in the evening went to celebrate CAROLINE'S birthday!...went to MOF at bugis..didn't noe of that place. when caroline told me abt that place i tot she scam me la..sian. i ate bento chicken teriyaki!..yummy! then anne, gab and i shared sesame icecream and some mango dessert. haha i accidently toppled the icecream on the mango dessert then anne and i hurried to scoop it back up...haha and all gab do was continue eating his sesame icecream...i tell u it was hilarious la..hahaaha!

tmr is kyung's and gab's b'dae..presents..have yet to make for them..how..die..caroline's present finally dried..after 2 nights..so can pass to her tmr ler..haha tmr going yukiyaki for dinner whee!
i'm so going to put on weight la. roar i alrdy gain 1 kg. i so need to do pt which shall include situps, pushups, jumping jacks...and LOADS of running..this hols isthe time for me to work out all my excess fats and build up on m stamina..
question is when am i staring this 'plan'...hmmm... soon ba..haha most prob after camp

mum's b'dae also coming its on tue..so sad, can't celebrate with her. onli can wish her happy b'dae on the phone at most.need to calculate the time diff sia,..otherwise later call wrong time.
oh and i just recieved jie's package..haha gt my favourite chocolate inside and some t-shirts jie ordered for me.thanks jie! yest night they called, they were at disneyland!!! roar! and tmr i gt sch..with EXTRA phy lessons...yay for me... oh ya and there's concultation till 6 plus.. jiayou ba,..
i need to buck up in class as well as for pw.need to push myself harder. cannot slack ler..mids coming soon mum and dad returning soon also.

i shall go do work, energy, power tutorial...or at least try to start on it..
haha blog later!=)

rushing my gp essay

2008-05-30T14:24:00.003+08:00

s4 had phototaking on wednesday. we had our own phototaking...hahahah!

i'm currently suppose to be doing my gp essay now...cause i gt no training. anyway, i couldn't find any ling gan so i've decided to blog..yeah man. super sian...i shall chiong gp later at...3 or 4 ba..sian.. jia you! sian. shld i stay in school to finish my gp or go home and chiong it??..hmm.

if i go home...i'll just slp and totally forget abt gp...oh man..there's econs also..damn! sian! kies i shall do econs at night.i shall attempt to do gp now. yes. i will start soon haha.

guiji

2008-05-26T18:15:00.003+08:00

nice lyrics...

怎麼隱藏我的悲傷
失去妳的地方
妳的髮香散的匆忙
我已經跟不上

閉上眼睛
還能看見
妳離去的痕跡
在月光下一直找尋
那想念的身影
如果說分手是苦痛的起點
那在終點之前我願意再愛一遍
想要對妳說的不敢說的愛
會不會有人可以明白

我會發著呆然後忘記妳
接著緊緊閉上眼
想著那一天會有人代替
讓我不再想念妳
我會發著呆然後微微笑
接著緊緊閉上眼
又想了一遍妳溫柔的臉
在我忘記之前

心裡的眼淚模糊了視線
妳已快看不見

kill me

2008-05-26T17:04:00.003+08:00

OMG...just now i blogged so much la..then suddenly it went back to dashboard...argh so pissed off..i super lazy so i shall just summarize wad i freaking wrote just now.

sat(24/5): touch rugby match at ccab..hope its not my last!
oh!...and steamboat with chicken, jon and chicken's friends.
sun(25.5): fun touch! haha it was so fun! sam, bernice, mitch, becky and i were the sr blacks!.

today leh..i totally screwd my phy test, doubt i will even get 1. tats how bad it is.. roar!
missed chinese orals..couldn't take it..felt very horrible inside.. so went home..and obviously now after aving a good rest am here blogging now!

(just went to click the 'SAVE NOW' button scared i lost this post again lor..then have to retype..by then i wouldn't be bothered le. )

so tmr gt chinese orals, and 6hrs straight of lessons...wow! shiong man.
wed gt chem bonding test...die..but MUST GET A!! so jiayou!jiayou!

oh and the hse so empty without u..sian super quiet la.

somemore parents at US DISNEY WORLD!...argh! but from wad jie said...she gt me a jacket..yay.. haha hope they do more shopping ..then i'll be included! whee.
need to get contacts this wed gt training. haiz i physically not fit la..just 2 consecutive days of game and i'm all tired out.i need to work out physically and mentally(for mids).i go start on maths or chem ler.

valerie signing out!

mistakes...

2008-05-22T01:15:00.003+08:00

my greatest mistake was to love you...

didn't do well for this term..need to work hard this hols especially when their not at home..jia you val! persevere...

DYING!

2008-05-18T10:13:00.006+08:00

AT HOME SUPER DUPER BORING!!

yap..mum and dad left for newyork to meet jie ler..

and today's the second day i'm alone at home..

i slept at 1 plus i think...had a few 5min naps in btw...or actually more than 5 mins. but ya thats not the point..

i was actually waiting for them to 报平安!

(cool man..can type chinese!!)

anyway i thought they were going to call but ended up onli msging me..make me stay up wait. and make some 某某人 keep nudging me every few mins..was super irritating..but thanks!

just this morning...my 大姑 brought my niece to visit my 小姑 and i... wa..my niece has a superpower..tats waking me up! her crying hor, is power man. i woke up immediately when she started crying. and i tot she was outside my room or in the living rm leh...but she was at the garden leh..

conclusion: she has super power!...haha like melvin(onli those who watch jeff will noe!!)

actually today wamted to wake up late and just go for church straight...but i guess the "SUPER CRY" woke me up.. so i decided since i have time before i ask my小姑to buy lunch for herself and the maid, i shall blog.

its been awhile since i blog..super lazy la..i also thought my blog would die ler..but i guess i just revived it again! 22 more days b4 my parents come back..

1. pack my study room

2.STUDY STUDY STUDY!(need to buck up)

3.need to save money...cannot anyhow spend.

yupyup...i need to jiayou le! oh and another....*counting* 46 days b4 my jie comes back..

I REALLY MISS HER.

i bet she super slim now...haiz..i need to go on a diet le..

4. GO ON A DIET!

i miss hugging her..haiz..sian emo-ing again...not gd..i still need to finish chem bonding and dynamics...i missed sch on thurs and fri..cause was sick so must not lag ler.. jia you

omg..is this my longest post...maybe cause i keep dotting and entering..haha kies..i go study le then go church and MUG MUG MUG! jia you! shall type in chinese next post!

kambate`

sick again=(

2008-05-15T13:54:00.002+08:00

wondering why i can blog at this time...i'm sick..

suppose to be in sch today..but obviously i over strained myself for the past few days..everynight slept at unearthly hours.

the doc say...i most prob didn't have enough rest and been in the sun too much.

having a horrible headache again...argh!

they're flying off tmr le... and i have to stay home for 3 weeks.. haiz..i wan to go usa...sian~

its so boring to stay at home...argh.

1s04 playgrd day!!

2008-05-13T00:08:00.004+08:00

hahaha...yepyep...i shall blog abt last fri.. last fri eneded sch at 12.30 i think! so we went to coffee shopthen there were some at bubble tea shop eating pancake...or isit called waffle..aiya..the idea is there jiu hao le. then we went to playgrd to play awhile.. soon after the rest came frm their talk with bob lau.
so there was....cm, becks, shihui, guoqiang, mengfook, jon, gab, eileen, lulu, nicole, joanne,elaine, thomas, yx, lisha, joel,yunjia, joshua,edwin.

some pics it show how gay some guys in my class can be...

cm and thomas...scandalous

the three blind mice...acting cute!

cm zi lian...act cute-ing...

more of hime acting cute....

somemore...

hahaha...tat fri was fun hope to have more of it soon..

oh and yes..i can go for camp aspire..whee...ubin here i come! tmr gt some photoshop thing for leaders...haha cool...but also very sian tmr need to finish up my gp presentation and pw gpp..draft1 i think..argh!! who will help me!

LAZY!

2008-05-11T23:48:00.007+08:00

i'm too lazy to do up the template..haha! shall just leave it like tat for now..

i'm super screwed..i forgt to hand up my pi references again..and how did i found out, they're still in my bag..shit man! and i'm not done with research either..argh!... oh and i need to print out parent's declaration form for gce..

let's see...things to do:

1. print and let mum sign gce declaration

2. call derek to help me get my aspire shirt size

3.finish up my pw research

4.do tutorials

5.SLP EARLY!!

wow..tats kinda a lot.. need to go sch myself for 2 reasons...1. need to report in sch by 7.10 for some talk.. 2. cause mum and dad are going US without me this fri..so i've gt to start waking up and going to sch on my own ler...sian

oh ya..i got gp presentation this week!!..ARGH!

diediedie...roar!

WELCOME ME!

2008-05-11T22:55:00.004+08:00

yep!...my another attempt to have a blog..haha i hope this works out this time. currently using my wonderful new VAIO...i mean RED VAIO!! haha it looks freaking good la..i'll attempt to edit my blogskin so just tolerate this skin for now..heehee

sch'a boring...gt pw reserch to rush, gp compre test next week, phy, maths and chem tutorial to chiong...bleah!

today's mother's day...had fish head curry at my grandaunt's hse..it was damn shiok! haha wishing all mother's a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

hai...very long nv do blogging...feels kinda weird...hmmm.shall go play with my template..
will blog again later=)

oh!! ALOT OF THANKS TO THOMAS..you've been an inspiration and help haha thanks!